Monday, July 2, 2007

Another Day in Paradise

I had a really hard time today getting anything finished at work. I just didn't have too much concentration. I'd start to do something, realize that it wasn't going to be only a couple hour project and move on to something else. I wasn't in the mood for a longer project. Needless to say, I didn't get too much done.

I'm finding that I'm doing less tasks in my personal life, but more is getting done. A while ago, maybe half a year now, I just stopped making lists. I used to make them all the time. You might say I was obsessed with them. And then one day I decided to stop. I figured that I'd either remember the things that were important or I wouldn't, and I'd be back to making lists again soon enough. We'll I do remember the things that are important and I feel like I have so much more time now. I have time to relax. I don't always look at the list and think about what I haven't gotten done yet, or what I still waiting to get done. It's a type of freedom that I've granted myself.

The other side of that is sometimes I just don't know what to do with myself. I have all these great crafts and hobbies that I like to do, but there are moments when I just don't know what to do with myself. I'm at a loss. But don't worry, I figured something out soon enough. Or I just enjoy the nothingness.

I've been enjoying the nothingness more lately.